You all owe me money

It wasn't two months.

It actually sucked. The quasi-boyfriend and I had the talk and decided to end it early this week.

He's a wonderful guy. He's smart and funny and sarcastic and brilliant and has great friends. He connects with me on a sexual level, and knows just how to push all of my buttons.

But I didn't feel the hearts and stars and romantic interest I crave. I tried to ride it out, see if it would come..

but it wasn't fair to either of us that I intensly disliked when he showed me affection. I just couldn't envision us together in the long run, and that made the short run harder.

I miss him already, but know we did the right thing. After an EARTH-SHATTERING goodbye fuck, we're trying to remain friends. So far it seems ok. Somehow I think going to a fetish night at a club might not be the best idea for that, though.

I told him that at some point, when I thought our feelings were out of it, casual sex was a real possibility. He said that probably wouldn't happen because i'm going to find someone to give me my hearts and stars and they will scoop me up.

I really hope so. But for some reason, I doubt it.

xoxox
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